Monday, May 16, 2016

Perception and Blessings

Sometimes in life it is so easy to find yourself weighed down by one thing that is suffocating you. Blocking your view of all these wonderful things you have around you. Skewing your perception. I think it's something that we all fall victim to from time to time. Typically it is disappointment, anger, or fear that dominate whatever single thing is owning your life, robbing you of the full happiness of your blessings, and keeping you from moving forward. It's not until you let those things go that you really start to feel better and breath again. Those who are closest to me know that I went through several weeks of life sucking suffocating, but I don't want to focus on those few weeks. As always, I think it is important for me to acknowledge they happened including here, because I think the internet is rampant with "my life is perfect" giving people false perception. I won't say it was a single thing that led me into those few long weeks, but instead it was a couple of major things. After processing and stressing for several weeks, I finally gave myself permission to give myself a break and enjoy all the wonderful things in my life. Allowing my perception to change and my blessings to be the main focus in my life. Those are the things I want to focus on!
April was a whirlwind of a month(as every month these days seems to be) and somehow I found myself in the middle of my trauma surgery month. I honestly thought trauma surgery was going to be more painful. The worst part is that I have to wake up at 330 in the morning and there isn't enough hours/energy in the day to run and work 14 hours. At the beginning of April, I took a weekend trip with a few of my best friends here to Fayetteville. Honestly, we basically did what we do here just in Fayetteville, so we had a fabulous time. The perfect get away weekend minus Jackson getting bronchitis.
I have so many things to look forward to in the coming months. There is something about the warmer weather in the spring that starts making me plan all these things. In just a couple weeks, I will be going home for a weekend to celebrate my grandparent's 10th anniversary. Yep, you read that correctly, 10th anniversary. Even though they have been together forever, they didn't get married until I was in high school. My sister and I decided to throw them a little family only party, complete with entertainment and homemade food. My sister and I haven't planned a party like this together in a long time and we are both extremely excited to dive back into our creative roots. Plus we are going to give into our silly sides for entertainment. Stay tuned for that in June. And while I was in the party planning spirit, I decided to throw a Surprise/not-so-surprise party for my sister's birthday this year. So often she is the one throwing everyone else parties that I thought it should be her turn. She did a great deal of the work to throw my graduation party last year. There will be more on that come July.
In the traveling news: I'm working on planning a weekend trip to Austin in August and a New Orleans trip next spring. I am also hoping to get in a San Francisco/Yosemite trip next spring. In my spirit to do as much hiking as possible, I couldn't think of a better next hiking destination than Yosemite. What could possibly beat a few days at the beach followed by a couple days hiking at Yosemite!
But above everything, I found out last week that I am going to be home for Christmas!!!! As a Christmas addict, I must say there is nothing that could have made me happier.
I'm surviving trauma surgery, planning parties, booking trips, and being surrounded by all the best people. All in all, life is pretty damn good.